Monday, June 27, 2011
In the Moment
I haven't been posting as often lately--or maybe it just feels like there has been more time in between posts. Part of that might be because school has ended and I am craving relaxation now that it's summer. Maybe it's because work has been busier than ever and pretty stressful the past couple weeks. Or perhaps it's just a normal lull of sorts.
Anytime it's been a few days since my last post, the need to write another is in the back of my mind (even though I love writing). It's kind of like the piles of papers I need to clean up, the laundry I need to fold, the pictures I need to hang on the walls, the clothes I need to put away, the errands I need to run. There is always a to-do list, something else I feel like I should be doing.
But while those tasks are hanging over my head, I'm not truly in the moment. I'm not focusing on the present.
A similar thing happens when I think about the future. On a small scale, I sometimes get so anxious thinking about the week ahead, I can't truly enjoy my Sunday. Or on a larger scale, I dream about what's going to happen in a few months, next year, a couple years from now. I plan out where I want to be, how I envision my life and family and career someday down the line.
But at the same time, all that thinking about the future can make it tough to treasure all the wonderful things I experience in my life now. It's hard to understand how I get from here to that point in the future. It's overwhelming to think of the time, the uncertainty, and all the little steps I will take before my life becomes the one I see in my future.
What does that mean now? What does that mean for my today? I can't discount the amazing aspects of my daily life. I can't forget to be grateful for the small things in life... and the big things... that I sometimes take for granted. Even when the to-do lists are never-ending and the goals I have set seem unattainable, my life right now holds so much happiness. I just need to remember to take a moment, recognize the good things, and thank God for all I have.